I miss you so much

Now, I know when you miss a person so much that you will subconsciously become that person. I have been feeling all the pain you have mentioned. Although I have tried not to think about it, but I still fell the stomach, bone, and throat pain. 
I have a lot to tell  you, I want to talk to you like we were used to be. I can't remember how many times I have cried in the closet. I just can't pretend that I am okay. I am not. I am getting very depressed after you have left us. Just like falling in a dark and deep valley, shout for help but no one hear it. I really want to go with you like I have promised.
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Be豬的抗爭路程，第n回 - No, No, No

Be豬依加成日講'no'。乜都no，好鬼煩。所以有次我忍唔住鬧佢: '乜都no，咁你撈唔撈C食飯呀！' 點知佢竟然唔答no，只係拎頭。我見整蠱唔到佢，再試: '咁你有無見過儍瓜頭拎拎呀？' 然後佢望住我，好大聲話'NO!'
。。。我投降。。。。（Be豬的抗爭路程，第n回 --> Be豬勝）

Chair

Sometimes, a chair would mean more than a chair: On one of the San Diego sunny days, I sat next to Marcus while he was enjoying his bread on his new chair. All the sudden, he found that I was sitting on the floor, so he put his bread down, looked around the room, and found a chair for me! 
Although the plastic chair is small and light, it is still too big and heavy for this little big man.  He could barely walk with carrying the chair. My heart melt right the way. I was so touched that I could not hold my tears. When he saw me tear, he smiled to me and gave me a big hug. I hugged and smiled back to him, and of course, kissed him so many times. 
This one year and nine months old boy was so innocent and thought that I like the chair very much, so he run around the room again and gave me all chairs he could find. I am just so blessed to have a son like him!

聰明人和傻子和奴才

　<聰明人和傻子和奴才> - 魯迅

 奴才總不過是尋人訴苦。只要這樣，也只能這樣。有一日，他遇到一個聰明人。
　　“先生！”他悲哀地說，眼淚聯成一線，就從眼角上直流下來。“你知道的。我所過的簡直不是人的生活。吃的是一天未必有一餐，這一餐又不過是高粱皮，連豬狗都不要吃的，尚且只有一小碗……”
　　“這實在令人同情。”聰明人也慘然說。
　　“可不是么！”他高興了。“可是做工是晝夜無休息：清早擔水晚燒飯，上午跑街夜磨面，晴洗衣裳雨張傘，冬燒汽爐夏打扇。半夜要煨銀耳，侍候主人耍錢；頭錢從來沒分，有時還挨皮鞭……。”
　　“唉唉……”聰明人歎息著，眼圈有些發紅，似乎要下淚。
　　“先生！我這樣是敷衍不下去的。我總得另外想法子。可是什么法子呢？……”
　　“我想，你總會好起來……”
　　“是么？但愿如此。可是我對先生訴了冤苦，又得你的同情和慰安，已經舒坦得不少了。可見天理沒有滅絕……”
　　但是，不几日，他又不平起來了，仍然尋人去訴苦。
　　“先生！”他流著眼淚說，“你知道的。我住的簡直比豬窩還不如。主人并不將我當人；他對他的叭儿狗還要好到几万倍……”
　　“混帳！”那人大叫起來，使他吃惊了。那人是一個傻子。
　　“先生，我住的只是一間破小屋，又濕，又陰，滿是臭虫，睡下去就咬得真可以。穢气沖著鼻子，四面又沒有一個窗子……”
　　“你不會要你的主人開一個窗的么？”
　　“這怎么行？……”
　　“那么，你帶我去看去！”
　　傻子跟奴才到他屋外，動手就砸那泥牆。
　　“先生！你干什么？”他大惊地說。
　　“我給你打開一個窗洞來。”
　　“這不行！主人要罵的！”
　　“管他呢！”他仍然砸。
　　“人來呀！強盜在毀咱們的屋子了！快來呀！遲一點可要打出窟窿來了！……”他哭嚷著，在地上團團地打滾。
　　一群奴才都出來，將傻子赶走。
　　听到了喊聲，慢慢地最后出來的是主人。
　　“有強盜要來毀咱們的屋子，我首先叫喊起來，大家一同把他赶走了。”他恭敬而得胜地說。
　　“你不錯。”主人這樣夸獎他。
　　這一天就來了許多慰問的人，聰明人也在內。
　　“先生。這回因為我有功，主人夸獎了我了。你先前說我總會好起來，實在是有先見之明……。”他大有希望似的高興地說。
　　“可不是么……”聰明人也代為高興似的回答他。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

Eczema

Around 10% of babies in US are suffering from eczema which was found more common in developed countries. My son is one of the unlucky ones. I just want to share our experiences in case it would help some of you. Please be advised that it is only our experiences which might not work for everyone. Please communicate with your doctor before taking any action on you or your baby.

Cause

As what I understand, eczema is also known as atopic dermatitis which is similar to allergy in the skin. It is inherited, so if the baby has family history of eczema, asthma, or hay fever, he/she might have higher chance to have eczema. It is very common in infants and could happen as early as 2 months. In most of the cases, it will be outgrown.  
The situation can be triggered by food and/or environment factors. For examples, cow's milk, egg, peanut, carrot, fish, shellfish, pollen, wool, detergent, mold, dust, dust mites, or animals' skin/hair, extreme weather (too hot/cold), chemicals (even in vapor), chlorine, soap, cigarette smoke, and anything even we haven't thought of.  We might want to avoid the factors which have made our baby's skin itchy or develop hives in 2 hours of ingestion. However, it is impossible to isolate from all of the factors. Therefore, what we can do is diminishing the influence.

Symptom

If our baby's skin (usually starts on cheeks at 2 - 6 months, then on creases of elbows, writs, and knees) turns red, bumpy, reddish, itchy, rash raw, weepy if scratched, constant dry, we might want to bring him/her to a doctor.

Experience 
 3-5 months Our baby started having eczema when he was 3 months old.  His cheeks turned red and dry. He started scratching and rubbing himself to bleed. He screamed in the middle of the night because he was so itchy and we did not let him to scratch. We have tried some many moisturizers but none of them work for our baby.

6-12 months
 Our baby had skin prick testing in children hospitals and found that he was allergic to egg and peanut.Therefore, here are what the allergist's suggestions which works very well on our baby:

1. Bathing for 20 - 30 minutes in warm water everyday. We put long selves cloth on him and frequently pour water all over the body especially on the area which doesn't soak in water. Water cannot be too warm because it will evaporate too fast; and evaporation makes the skin even drier.  After bathing, pad a little bit to remove extra water but not completely dry, then we apply A LOT of Vaseline all over his skin (this step must be done in 5 minutes from the time taking him out from water because it is very important to trap the moisture absorbed during bathing before evaporation) .

Our baby's skin used to be so rough although we apply Vaseline on him 5 times a day. However, after following the above steps, his skin is silky smooth for the whole day!! Since then, he could sleep through the night without waking up in the middle of night due to itchiness. His immune system got better because of sufficient sleep. As a result, his eczema got a lot better.

2. Dry the saliva. The area around his mouth is always the worst especially at the time of teething.  Saliva breaks down the protein on the skin, then he felt itchy and irritated. Finally, he rubbed that area and triggered eczema. We had to dry and sometime rinse off the saliva right the way.

3. Pitch Skin Test. We took him to a pitch skin test to find out what he was allergic to. The accuracy of the test is ~70% and the subject baby allergic to can be changed every week. This test is not recommended for baby under 6 months old because the baby still contains the antibodies from his/her mother, so the result will also show what the mother allergic to but not necessary affects the baby. We took this test because we wanted to have an idea which food and environmental factor he MAY be allergic to. We used the results as a reference.

4. Food to feed. Although the results of the pitch skin test showed negative on some food items, we still only fed him very little at his first trial and observed his response closely before we gave him more. We avoid the food which showed positive from the pitch skin test, so it is very important to read the nutrient label on the food package. For example, if baby is allergic to shrimp but okay with seaweed.  The food label on the seaweed must be checked carefully, because it shows if shrimp extract was added to the seaweed.

5. Medicine. Once a while, eczema still comes back. Steroid seems to be the only solution for now. For some reason, steroid sometimes doesn't work for our baby, we were recommended to try Lingon Emulsion lotions (1 and 2). It works very well for our baby but please be advised that Lingon Emulsion lotions were made in Swedish and have not been approved by FDA in US yet.

Hope the above information helps and most important, the eczema will be outgrown very soon.

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All I need is a miracle from Him!

Marcus' Developmental Milestones

Marcus' developmental milestones:
6 months - always liked to kiss mama.
9 months - kissed mama when he was asked to do so.
12 months - pretended that he did not understand when he was asked to kiss mama.
15 months - said no by shaking his head and waving his hand when he was asked to kiss mama.